A Weighted Conclusion
“Am I crazy?”
This is quite possibly the one question that we ask ourselves often enough to effectively prevent our creative ability to reach its full potential. Formulating an idea about certain experiences that we would like to have, and then instinctively weighing the rational nature of this extreme notion, is the one thing that can keep us from ever reaching it. You’d have to be crazy!
I spent the majority of my adult life wondering if I weren’t playing the role of the main character in the “Gaslight” movie. When you spend a substantial amount of time, as I have, absorbing the experience and opinions of others, you tend to develop a propensity toward self-doubt. The idea that you can create your own experiences by personally accessing the magic of Divine Self is rather frowned upon by the general public, if you know what I mean:)
As a child, my dreams were routinely dismissed as ‘unrealistic’ by those whose approval I sought the most. “Silly Jilly” became the usual response to most of my expressed ideas about creating my life’s desires, so I relinquished my sovereignty at an early age.
Relying on the consensus of other ‘experts’ would continue to define the reasonable limits of my dreams throughout most of my adult life, as well. Acceptable formulas of logical reasoning, a strong work ethic, education and work experience, and one-in-a-million statistical data on ‘chance and luck’ had successfully permeated my mental framework. I could easily appear to be relatively sane like the rest of the population! (Not that there is anything wrong with that…)
“I will achieve my dreams by standard and proven means, thank you very much.”
With the help of my overactive brain, I subscribed to the idea that sole creative power is appealing when used on a practical level for daily progress toward rational goals. Profound miracles that change your life are reserved for rare occasions, entertainment purposes, and external forces of fate or destiny that we may, in fact, have some minor influence on. Although most people would agree that significant changes are always possible (with hard work, dues, and an overall positive disposition), compelling shifts in life are most commonly bestowed upon those with uncanny luck, or granted to the rest of us if and when the “powers that be” decide that it is our time.
That’s about as damn “reasonable” as it gets.
If this sounds even remotely familiar to you, welcome to the club. When maintaining an often mundane, always acceptable, sometimes even admirable life no longer suits you, its good to remember that you have choices.
If you have been visiting with me for awhile, you may have read parts one and two on “A Weighted Matter.” Entertaining extreme versions of your heart’s desires (more commonly known as your “wildest dreams”) so often receives only a small portion of our attention. Thanks to our own cognitive process, a thorough integration of external ideas, and whatever else we may assimilate as reasonable expectations, we consistently choose to remain relatively close to the center of our virtual see-saws. Most of the time, we are not even aware of these continual choices, and even when we are, we view our ability to make intentional moves toward our extremes as limited.
Extreme versions of abundance and lack are so routinely dismissed as either objectionable, or implausible, that we base our choices on neither. (In other words, your “bowl of rocks” is too scary, and your “bowl of oranges” is too good to be true.)
Remember that one kid that we all knew in elementary school? This is the kid who said that he was going to grow up and become an astronaut, or play in the NFL, or travel the world in his own private jet. And then he did.
Most grown-ups would attribute his success to talent, hard work, struggle, determination, higher education, and good grades. These are, of course, genuine actions that contributed to the fulfillment of his dream. There are those, also, who would attribute his ultimate success to luck. I know this kid. Luck had nothing to do with it.
Now you’re going to want to laugh at me if I tell you that he had “heart” (and then that song from the musical “Damn Yankees” is probably going to pop into your head, too. “We’ve gotta have heart…all you really need is heart…”) The fact that this kid does have heart is obvious. C’mon.
What this kid truly DOES have cannot be observed. It is his undivided attention and acute awareness of continual choice that preceded any observable actions that he took to achieve his dream. His consistent decision to choose toward the direction of his extreme desire inspired and sustained his participation in any subsequent actions. This kid did not wait until he was an adult to remember Who He Was. He knew the difference between viewing choice through logic and justification, and focusing on choice with emotional awareness. He did it one “orange” at a time, and trusted in nothing, or no one, but his own Divine power to deliver. He still does.
I do not know what you have accumulated in your bowl of oranges. But you do. You’re not crazy, either. Whatever desires you have placed on the extreme end of your virtual see-saw are being created specifically for you, by You, at this very moment. The only thing missing is your presence.
Trusting in your Divine Self to manifest all that you desire, and more, is a process that is unique to you. Don’t “think” about it so much. Be compassionate with your dreams, and allow the awareness of emotional (heart-based) choices to linger. Take a “look” at that bowl of oranges a little longer each day without dismissing your possibilities with reasonable justifications, or the fear that you might be losing your mind. Making the heartfelt and deliberate decision to choose toward the extreme end of your virtual see-saw will require that you DO lose your mind!
If your extreme versions of what you really desire to experience seem unreasonable, or you worry that they are unrealistic, then just don’t share them with any one for now (Creator, Party of One). Every minute of every day, you have an opportunity to breathe, live and just “be” with your dreams. Choosing to spend time with your version of abundance, ignites your ability to create it. The more time that you choose to spend with this extreme version of self, the more that your dreams expand. The more that your dreams expand, the more that their virtual weight increases. The weightier that your dreams become, the more that you vibrationally align with your creation…until eventually, that which you choose to envision with consistent awareness becomes your reality.
As if I haven’t watched enough Disney movies with Caroline already, I heard the Emperor in “Mulan” remind us this afternoon that “It only takes one grain of rice to tip the scale.”
Dream away, my friend:)
Mom, all three of these “Weighted Matter” posts have pretty much “hit the spot.” The last one was very appropriate for me at the moment because I was just thinking the other day, “Well if all of what my mom says is true, than why am I still doing homework and studying for tests???” I obviously have to continue to do well in school, but dreaming and believing that I will one day be a famous photographer or writer is what will really get me there. Thanks, mom:)
Also, I know that you were talking about Uncle Nick when you said “The kid that says he is going to play for an NFL team, and ends up doing it.” Just goes to show that you are absolutely correct:)