Posts Tagged ‘manifest desires’

A Weighted Conclusion

“Am I crazy?”

This is quite possibly the one question that we ask ourselves often enough to effectively prevent our creative ability to reach its full potential.  Formulating an idea about certain experiences that we would like to have, and then instinctively weighing the rational nature of this extreme notion, is the one thing that can keep us from ever reaching it.  You’d have to be crazy!

I spent the majority of my adult life wondering if I weren’t playing the role of the main character in the “Gaslight” movie.  When you spend a substantial amount of time, as I have, absorbing the experience and opinions of others, you tend to develop a propensity toward self-doubt.  The idea that you can create your own experiences by personally accessing the magic of Divine Self is rather frowned upon by the general public, if you know what I mean:)

As a child, my dreams were routinely dismissed as ‘unrealistic’ by those whose approval I sought the most.  “Silly Jilly” became the usual response to most of my expressed ideas about creating my life’s desires, so I relinquished my sovereignty at an early age.

Relying on the consensus of other ‘experts’ would continue to define the reasonable limits of my dreams throughout most of my adult life, as well.  Acceptable formulas of logical reasoning, a strong work ethic, education and work experience, and one-in-a-million statistical data on ‘chance and luck’ had successfully permeated my mental framework.  I could easily appear to be relatively sane like the rest of the population! (Not that there is anything wrong with that…)

“I will achieve my dreams by standard and proven means, thank you very much.”

With the help of my overactive brain, I subscribed to the idea that sole creative power is appealing when used on a practical level for daily progress toward rational goals.  Profound miracles that change your life are reserved for rare occasions, entertainment purposes, and external forces of fate or destiny that we may, in fact, have some minor influence on.  Although most people would agree that significant changes are always possible (with hard work, dues, and an overall positive disposition), compelling shifts in life are most commonly bestowed upon those with uncanny luck, or granted to the rest of us if and when the “powers that be” decide that it is our time.

That’s about as damn “reasonable” as it gets.

If this sounds even remotely familiar to you, welcome to the club.  When maintaining an often mundane, always acceptable, sometimes even admirable life no longer suits you, its good to remember that you have choices.

If you have been visiting with me for awhile, you may have read parts one and two on “A Weighted Matter.”  Entertaining extreme versions of your heart’s desires (more commonly known as your “wildest dreams”) so often receives only a small portion of our attention.  Thanks to our own cognitive process, a thorough integration of external ideas, and whatever else we may assimilate as reasonable expectations, we consistently choose to remain relatively close to the center of our virtual see-saws.  Most of the time, we are not even aware of these continual choices, and even when we are, we view our ability to make intentional moves toward our extremes as limited.

Extreme versions of abundance and lack are so routinely dismissed as either objectionable, or implausible, that we base our choices on neither.  (In other words, your “bowl of rocks” is too scary, and your “bowl of oranges” is too good to be true.)

Remember that one kid that we all knew in elementary school?  This is the kid who said that he was going to grow up and become an astronaut, or play in the NFL, or travel the world in his own private jet.  And then he did.

Most grown-ups would attribute his success to talent, hard work, struggle, determination, higher education, and good grades.  These are, of course, genuine actions that contributed to the fulfillment of his dream.  There are those, also, who would attribute his ultimate success to luck.  I know this kid.  Luck had nothing to do with it.

Now you’re going to want to laugh at me if I tell you that he had “heart” (and then that song from the musical “Damn Yankees” is probably going to pop into your head, too.  “We’ve gotta have heart…all you really need is heart…”)  The fact that this kid does have heart is obvious.  C’mon.

What this kid truly DOES have cannot be observed.  It is his undivided attention and acute awareness of continual choice that preceded any observable actions that he took to achieve his dream.  His consistent decision to choose toward the direction of his extreme desire inspired and sustained his participation in any subsequent actions.  This kid did not wait until he was an adult to remember Who He Was.  He knew the difference between viewing choice through logic and justification, and focusing on choice with emotional awareness.  He did it one “orange” at a time, and trusted in nothing, or no one, but his own Divine power to deliver.  He still does.

I do not know what you have accumulated in your bowl of oranges.  But you do.  You’re not crazy, either.  Whatever desires you have placed on the extreme end of your virtual see-saw are being created specifically for you, by You, at this very moment.  The only thing missing is your presence.

Trusting in your Divine Self to manifest all that you desire, and more, is a process that is unique to you.  Don’t “think” about it so much.  Be compassionate with your dreams, and allow the awareness of emotional (heart-based) choices to linger.  Take a “look” at that bowl of oranges a little longer each day without dismissing your possibilities with reasonable justifications, or the fear that you might be losing your mind.  Making the heartfelt and deliberate decision to choose toward the extreme end of your virtual see-saw will require that you DO lose your mind!

If your extreme versions of what you really desire to experience seem unreasonable, or you worry that they are unrealistic, then just don’t share them with any one for now (Creator, Party of One).  Every minute of every day, you have an opportunity to breathe, live and just “be” with your dreams.  Choosing to spend time with your version of abundance, ignites your ability to create it.  The more time that you choose to spend with this extreme version of self, the more that your dreams expand.  The more that your dreams expand, the more that their virtual weight increases.  The weightier that your dreams become, the more that you vibrationally align with your creation…until eventually, that which you choose to envision with consistent awareness becomes your reality.

As if I haven’t watched enough Disney movies with Caroline already, I heard the Emperor in “Mulan” remind us this afternoon that “It only takes one grain of rice to tip the scale.”

Dream away, my friend:)

You Are The One That You Have Been Waiting For

My sister wants something.  She wants it badly.  As if on cue, a barrage of relevant circumstances parade into Evie’s life in order to justify the reason why she wanted this thing in the first place.  As the frequency of these pertinent events increase, so does Evie’s desire.  The more that she wants this thing, the more valid the reasons to have it become.  This vicious cycle of creation can be pretty damn frustrating.

“I am missing something,” Evie declares with great certainty.

For most of us who are engaged in the process of creating something that we REALLY want, the inclination to question the procedure that we are currently following is inherent.  It is what we do.  Human nature requires that we devise plans, experiment by trial and error, explore and investigate various methods , discover a secret formula, and basically try to understand WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON when seeking to manifest our desires.

Often, we want to scream, “What is the problem?!”

We review our checklist.  We know that we have stated an intention, identified valid reasons, formulated the appropriate thoughts, focused on the outcome, practiced expectation, and even ‘pretended’ that this thing we want so badly is already in our experience.  In addition, we have prayed, meditated, prayed some more, read at least 900 books on the Law of Attraction, visited over 600 websites dedicated to successful goal attainment, meditated some more, cast some spells, visited a medium, purchased several thousand programs that guarantee results, and then prayed and meditated some more.

And yet this thing that we want so badly remains an elusive dream.  One might describe this overall predicament as some sort of unforgiving holding pattern. It would seem that no matter what steps are taken, the heart’s desire seems to linger just out of reach.

Do not despair, my friend.  The solution is not as complicated, or as mysterious, as the conscious mind would insist.  Have you considered the possibility that your frustration, and perhaps even the nature of your incessantly inquisitive mind, may actually BE a significant aspect of your creative process?

You are a unique and complex being.  Your story is original.  Perhaps, in the asking of your heart’s desire, you have included your own personal requirement for a deep and sustainable level of vibrational alignment with that which is your Source.  Perhaps you wanted to REALLY know what you know, and did not want to settle for what you think you know.  Perhaps the process that you are participating in is actually proceeding perfectly according to your own Divine plan.

Whichever force that you believe is at work IS.  Higher Self, God, Goddess, All-That-Is, the Light, Buddha, Mother Earth, Jesus Christ, Great Spirit, Subconscious Mind, Divine Source, and any other titles that you may use to define Infinite Power is at work.  Only you, in your absolute unparalleled existence as an individual being have defined your specific level of connection to this Source.  All of the Infinite Wisdom that you possessed before you arrived on the planet is intact.  You are remembering All That You Know in the exact incremental pieces that you planned for.  You ventured forth in your human experience, excited to determine a flexible and sequential schedule of recall along your way.

When your conscious mind insists that you are ready, and convinces you that you have completed all the necessary preparations required in order to receive any of the Divine gifts that you are wanting in this lifetime, it is because it still ‘thinks’ that it is in charge.  Having to ask, “REALLY?!?  Then where the hell are my manifestations?!” is a good indication that your conscious mind still believes that it is running the show.

Here’s the thing.  Whatever you think you are doing, or not doing, is not wrong.  Relax.  It is your plan.  You can trust you.  Enjoy the experience of what you are creating at this very moment, and be thrilled and proud of what you have already brought into your life.  Divine Self has it all figured out, everything is perfectly orchestrated and coming together beautifully.  No matter what your conscious mind is badgering you about, trust that Source has the plan to manifest your heart’s desire.  Source is you.

That thing that Evie wants so badly?  It already exists.  The Source to which she is connected is holding the vibrational tone of her creation.  What is missing?  Not a thing.  Evie’s Source already knows how to do this.  Evie already knows how to manifest her heart’s desire.  The only reason why this one specific desire has not yet manifested, is because Evie did not want to settle for what she only thinks she knows.  She wanted to remember the depth of what it feels like to achieve and maintain vibrational alignment with Source.  She wanted to be able to determine her own schedule.  She wanted to experience remembering Who She Is in the way that it best for Evie.  Then Evie will remember what Evie already knows.

‘Tis a beautiful plan, indeed.